Tell me what happened to beauty

You lied to me, love, there was nothing to learn: the dream has no rules, the journey has no destination, and you who knew it betrayed me, you a thousand times worse than your accomplices, you who revealed my secrets to the world. No, I do not absolve you, cowardice is a mortal sin: you excluded me from the miracle too. Look at me now how you have reduced me, I am all bruised inside and out: what an unworthy ending to our farce, love. I leave you here nailed to your body, I do not want you, I do not want her. I do not want, I do not want you anymore. I despise you, executioners, tormentors of the terminally ill, I do not want you, I only want myself back.
Where is my beauty, tell me what happened to beauty: you were not the answer, my cowardly and heartless love, it is the same with you or without you. Let me go now, now that I feel the call stronger, now that I see like a light in the end.
How much useless pain: you don't know you don't know how much I suffered, I would have given my life to save you. I gave you my soul, you don't care about my soul, nobody cares about my soul.
Listen, I have to tell you something: I died and you, my absent-minded and heartless love, didn't notice, and you weren't at my funeral. It's over, it's over, it's over, you could at least cry, you could at least pretend to cry. And what are these tears now? Don't cry, please, come here.
God, I didn't remember it being so beautiful, it almost seems real, as if love existed. Thank you for existing, love, thank you for giving me illusions. Now hold me, look at me, hold my hands, it will be a little girl this time, with my eyes and your hair, take me, take her if that's what you want, if you can't follow me, if it's destiny for you to stay on the ground, if there's no other place where this flight can take us.